One word to describe that cause my blog into slumber and dead is actually a very common word - indolent ! No doubt, I'm indeed a lazy person ! Attempted to update my blog everyday that eventually I failed to do so. My laziness has already brought me to the peak of mountain and lack of desire to expand effort. How do I gonna change this shitty habit away? Any tips someone?
Something that I really need to mention here because I think that I will feel more comfortable and relief after I type it out here. Well, I felt nothing toward her anymore, should I say I made it? I used to view her blog and facebook updates everyday even her photos as well. Now, seems like I didn't repeat the same action anymore. Maybe I really let her go entirely. A very funny act that I used to text with her is whatever message she sent to me, I will keep it in my inbox and will not delete it yet now everything is gone. Yes, I deleted all her messages and photos. Undeniable, this is the only way I can do. The same words still, all the best for her and good luck.
Chinese New Year is just around the corner, very soon I will be receive a lots of 'Ang Pau' ! Haha. Am I looks like a money-eyer ? Did you guys always see this '$$' at my eyes? Frankly and honestly, yes I am ! The greatest festival ever among all Chinese race although it's just once a year yet happiness are linked between each other among family and friends. And yes, my eldest brother whom just graduated from his Master study is coming back on this Friday night! I did miss him a lots ! I heard my mum said he did bought me a lots of new clothes and a pair of shoe that I asked him to buy for me ! Haha =)
About alcohol, not to say addicted to alcohol drinks but if you ask me to drink I will. Just wanna get myself some tipsy so that I will feel more relief. Liquid courage! Undoubtedly alcohol is a psychoactive depressant, which simply means it is a chemical substance that alters perceptions and mood through reduced neural activities and slowed body function. Due to this, alcohol is likely to make you act upon various urges you feel but resist when sober. Sometimes this side effect of drinking is good, In my little humble opinion of course. But at least I did some amendment for myself, I've already less to club as I felt a little bit bored of club.
My holiday life is actually just like a bread left for few days after the expiration date waiting for the spores to grow up. It's so meaningless with my holiday, I'm really gonna find some entertainment such a vacation, party ( BBQ party perhaps? ), and others activity that might make me feels so high ! I'm so craving for a thing actually, I will not tell it here what's the thing because it's private and confidential ! Almost done with the thing yet failed so many times. Maybe need to improve my communication skill, talk all the time ! I don't wanna be a dummy as what my mum always says so to me when I didn't answer her question. I wanna become more aggressive and confident toward myself ! Because my mouth is the only way that made me live in this world !
Of course a thing that I must not forget is my body workout! Although become a model still a long way to go but everything is still in the process. I need another half year more to achieve something that I hope to. I know I'm skinny still, I've already try to fit up myself. Just need sometime to build up nicer my body figure. Oh ya, I went to a spectacles shop to make myself a new spectacles because the one I'm wearing now already broken. This time the new spectacles will be looks like old customs with thoroughly black and the lens is big.
Well, now is 5.06am in the midnight. Guess that I should stop with a full stop here. Goodnight to all my readers. Will update soon. Bye
